Tidbits from Lauttasaari

HotDamn! Bang on the money !

Oh, if i could write like that. joyous envy. Who IS this Gretowska? Sure, perhaps it is the late hour influencing me, or the soft alluring music permeating my brain cells. The combination of clarity, absolute self-confessional, witty humor and acute, sharp senses makes for ajoyable reading. Wow!

It suddenly strikes me. Murakami and Auster are modern day Hemingways'. Both write short, sharp prose Hemingway style, but with the allussion to something deeper. The seemingly mundane is hinting at something hidden. The naivistic story line can drive you crazy with exasperation, frantically looking for the subtext you feel convinced is in there. More often than not you do not find it, but the promise remains. And keeps you reading. Perhaps the mystery is really simple too, and it is all about the search, that keeps you curious and open minded. I don't know for sure. That's the whole point.

Rain, wind, dark clouds. Feeling like in Mordor. The menacing grey of these dark clouds bring ill tidings to the shire. Seldom have we been so rattled, and i don't recall seing it rain upwards before.

I read the obituary of Felix Forsman. Another great man gone. It makes me sad.

Sigh. Nope, wont have the dough to spend for a bike, even with 30% winter season discount. Dunno, maybe i am fooling myself, thinking that i would get more exercise with a bike that has gears, and a decent seat. Well… I will dream on… See more progress on: get a new bike

So my friend Trissan wrote a column about blogging, admiring political blogs, and making fun of, or being perplexed about the blogs of "ordinary, boring people". She claimed to see their point, but it remained clear to me she missed it entirely. Sure blogs from politicians can be fun, as from people in extraordinary circumstances. But they are extensions of the current media system. It not like they are the forgotten people, we hear almost too much of them anyway, the celebs and the politicians. Now they try to tell us they have a "human" face, which of course they have. But that doesn't alter their political behaviour. I do not feel sorry for them, blogs from that direction makes me suspicious. I think blogging is a medium many now tries to use for different purposes, media, politicians, celebreties, as well as the rest of us. I agree with Trissan about the interesting perspectives sometimes offered in personal blogs from people with a knack for writing. And i ...

Saw My best minute, an open competition for 1-minute films, recently. Some 18 films were submitted, and obviously the quality varied a lot. But the freshness was unmistakable. It made me want to dust off our camera and start shooting again. On the way home i started thinking about two short stories i would like to make. Hmm, yes, i think i will now. Have to jot down the ideas before they disappear.

Now listening to Decemberists - The tain Part Four. Just right for this shitty weather.

Livejournal has an impressive list of school bloggers collected. I am in awe.

So I was at this big celebration, right? I was there in lieu of my boss, who couldn't come. In the very last second he provided me with the address/greeting i was to read. There were some 150 perople there, all went smoothly. We heard some music, saw a little dancing, heard some speeches. It was pretty laid-back and relaxed. Then it was my turn. I had rehearsed. The text was not long. and yet i felt nervous. I read calmly enough. But i wasn't happy. I didn't like my input. Something is the setup didn't work. I guess most people didn't notice, but i did. And i am annoyed that i cannot even put my finger on it. It just left me with an itchy feeling.

Today i have started writing my daily Finnish sentences. I will do this. I will. And someday i will learn too. First attempt: Aluksi tuntuu synkältä. Päivät pimenevät ja lyhenevät. Työmäärä kasvaa entisestään. Ei silti tarvita kun yksi aurinkoinen aamu, ja kas, kaikki tuntuu taas kulkevan helpommin. Kumma, eikö vaan? Ulkona on yhtä synkkä. Maailma on edelleen epäoikeudenmukainen. Mikään ei ole oikeastaan muuttunut. Silti sydän hakkaa, elämää maistuu. Ehkä pitäisi sanoa että onneksi on näin. Onneksi pystymme antamaan tunteet valloittaa meidät. Edes hetkeksi. Päivän suomenkielinen teksti.

While the leaves keep falling i take another step and think about those not here absent friends and it is not fair it never was and i think it never will be.

Sun is shining. Warmer again. Life feels wonderful.

Resolution #432218 I will write at least three sentences in Finnish every day, to improve my writing skills. Just have to find out who to write to.